Outside looking in.
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Last night was a ‘perfect storm’ of bad nights in our house.
Near the end of a challenging week.
With two children who are a bit “under the weather.”
And a number of significant transitions happening in our world.
And I will admit that sometimes when I feel this energy, I don’t stop it.
I want to yell. I want to slam doors. I want the people around me to hear and feel how angry and frustrated I am.
But I never like how it feels the second the yelling stops. The second I look into the eyes of those I love and see the hurt I’ve caused.
And so last night, when it felt like I was on a speeding train, careening out of control and heading towards that tunnel of darkness, I did something very powerful:
I jumped off.
I turned off everything on the stove. Walked out the back door. And gave myself a little “Time Out” on our back deck.
And as I stood there, I met myself with compassion.
I took deep breaths and looked up at the sky.
(If you have not yet read this blog post on self compassion by Allison Abramson, I urge you to do so — it is very powerful.)
I stood there until I felt the tension and anger leave my body, until I felt back in control and capable of handling myself with some measure of grace and dignity.
I didn’t solve any of the issues that are causing tension in our family. I didn’t magically manifest the key ingredient for our dinner that was missing.
But I did clear my head and come back to my Center.
And that made all the difference in the world.
Happy Friday, my friends.
Love + Light . . .
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